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Chapter 9: Volume 1, - 9: One Thousand Touches

Chapter 9: Volume 1, Chapter 9: One Thousand Touches

The concrete courtyard behind the Olivais apartment complex was pitch-black at 04:45 in the morning. The orange glow of the streetlamps threw long, distorted shadows across the cracked pavement, where patches of frost had formed slick, treacherous skins.

Rayan shivered inside his windbreaker, his breath forming thick, ragged plumes in the freezing air. His left ankle felt like an old iron hinge that needed oiling, but he didn’t wait for it to warm up. He couldn’t. The digital clock on his lock screen was ticking towards his school commute, and every second spent standing still felt like an admission of defeat.

"Go," he muttered to himself.

He dropped the ball and launched into a frantic, unstructured sprint across the fifty-metre courtyard. When he reached the brick dumpster enclosure, he planted his foot hard and swung his leg, driving the ball furiously against the iron gate. The metallic CLANG echoed violently through the quiet residential square, followed by the frantic barking of a neighbour’s dog on the second floor.

Rayan didn’t care. He chased the erratic rebound, lunging forward to bring it under control, his breath already burning in his throat. He didn’t have cones arranged or a technical plan to follow. In his mind, the maths was primitive: if Coach Tavares said his technical security was too low, he simply needed to force his body through more repetitions than anyone else. More speed. More impact. More pain.

He created a circuit in his head. A chaotic sequence of maximum-effort sprints, sharp cutbacks around concrete planters and heavy, driven strikes against the retaining wall. By the twentieth minute, the skin on his heels was raw, friction burning inside his damp socks. His movements grew increasingly frantic. When the ball struck an uneven lip in the pavement and skipped into a muddy drainage channel, he chased it down with a desperate, heavy-footed stride, kicking it back into the open with a harsh, uncoordinated slash of his boot.

He wasn’t practising football; he was punishing his body for not being perfect. By the time the sky turned a bruised, pale violet at 06:30, Rayan was leaning against a concrete pillar, his chest heaving violently and his thighs trembling with a deep, lactic burn. He had run for miles in the dark, but as he looked down at the muddy, scuffed ball between his feet, he didn’t feel any sharper. He only felt empty. And old.

The fifth-period English quiz was an absolute disaster.

Rayan sat in the back row, his forehead resting against the cool surface of his wooden desk. The warmth from the radiator, combined with the crushing exhaustion of his early-morning session, had turned his eyelids into lead weights. The text on the printed sheet looked like a blur of meaningless characters.

Complete the sentence with the correct conditional structure:

If the team ________ (train) harder last month, they ________ (win) the regional tournament.

Rayan stared at the blank lines. His hand shook slightly as he held the pen. His hamstrings were cramping beneath the desk, a tight, knotted ache that made it impossible to find a comfortable position.

"Rayan," a sharp voice snapped.

He jerked his head up, his vision swimming. Senhora Rebelo was standing over his desk, her arms crossed and her eyes narrowed behind her spectacles. "If you are quite finished using my classroom as a dormitory, perhaps you could complete the evaluation? There are only five minutes remaining."

A few boys in the middle row snickered. Rayan caught Joca looking back at him, his brow furrowed with a mixture of confusion and concern. Rafa didn’t look back at all; he was already stacking his completed papers neatly at the corner of his desk.

"Sorry," Rayan mumbled, his voice thick with sleep. He looked down at the paper and hastily scribbled had trained and would win without thinking, his mind completely detached from the grammar. He didn’t care about conditional sentences. The only condition that mattered was the four-week deadline hanging over his head at Alcochete, and right now, his body was failing him before he even reached the pitch.

The afternoon training session on Pitch 3 was a public execution of Rayan’s remaining energy.

They were playing a high-intensity, five-against-five transition game inside a forty-metre grid. The rule was simple: two touches maximum, rapid ball movement and immediate pressure after possession changed. It was exactly the type of environment in which Rayan’s technical flaws were magnified beneath a microscope.

Tomás fired a crisp, fizzing pass into Rayan’s feet near the touchline. Under normal circumstances, Rayan would have used his acceleration to cushion the ball forwards with his first touch. But his legs were dead, his reactions delayed by the morning’s reckless sprints.

The ball struck the instep of his boot and hopped upwards, spinning out of bounds.

"Simple, Rayan! Keep it on the ground!" Coach Tavares shouted from the sideline, his whistle resting against his chin.

Three minutes later, Rayan intercepted a loose ball in the defensive third. His teammates flooded forwards into the half-spaces. Afonso was screaming for the ball on the opposite side, completely unmarked. Instead of releasing the first-time pass, Rayan attempted an extra touch to steady his heavy legs.

Before his foot could clear the ball, Duarte, pressing from his blind side, stepped across his path with effortless physical control. Duarte picked his pocket, shifted his weight and slid a perfectly weighted pass through the lines to one of his teammates, who calmly placed it into the mini-goal.

The whistle blew. "Game over. Blue team wins," Tavares called out.

Rayan remained on one knee, his hands buried in the damp turf and his chest burning. His teammates walked past him towards the hydration station. None of them offered a hand to pull him up. The collective silence of the squad was deafening; they could sense the decay of his academy career, and nobody wanted to stand too close to a player already being measured for the release list.

Duarte walked past, wiping sweat from his forehead with his training shirt. He stopped for a second, looking down at Rayan with cold, almost bored detachment.

"You’re running like you’ve got bricks in your boots today, El Mansouri," Duarte said, his voice level and entirely lacking malice. Which somehow made it worse. "Running yourself into the ground won’t fix a bad first touch. It doesn’t work like that."

Rayan didn’t look up until Duarte’s shadow moved away.

As the rest of the squad filed into the dressing room, Coach Tavares approached the bench where Rayan was slowly removing his shin guards. The coach didn’t look angry; he looked disappointed in a way that felt entirely clinical.

"Reckless work is not the same as effective work, Rayan," Tavares said quietly, looking down at his digital clipboard. "Our tracking data shows that your high-intensity distance today was higher than anyone else’s, but your pass-completion rate was forty-two percent. You are burning your own engine to produce nothing but smoke. If you arrive at training already exhausted, you are wasting our time and yours."

By 18:45, most of the academy facility had fallen quiet. The floodlights on the main pitches had been switched off, leaving only the dim security lighting around the perimeter paths. Evening fog was rolling in from the Tagus River, turning the air thick and white.

Rayan didn’t go directly to the dressing room. Instead, he collected a bag containing six older training balls and walked to the far end of the complex, behind the equipment sheds, where a massive thirty-metre concrete wall stood. It was an old rebound structure used by the junior teams for basic passing and volley drills, its surface stained with green mould and decades of ball impacts.

He dropped the bag. His body was screaming for rest, his knees aching with a dull, throbbing heat. But the sound of Sofia’s voice from the kitchen. ’Maybe it’s for the best’, was still ringing in his ears.

"One thousand," he whispered into the fog. "One thousand touches before I leave."

He set the target. They couldn’t be random strikes. He needed a pattern: right foot, receive, shift, left foot, release. Control, impact, control, impact.

One. Two. Three.

The ball clicked against the concrete, returning to him with a predictable, steady velocity.

Forty-five. Forty-six.

By the hundredth touch, the skin on his right heel tore open. He felt the sudden wet warmth of blood soaking into his white sock, followed by a sharp, stinging burn every time he planted his foot to strike. He didn’t stop. He gritted his teeth, his jaw locking so tightly that they clicked together.

Two hundred and ten. Two hundred and eleven.

As the number crawled upwards, the reality of his life beyond the wall began to fragment.

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In the Olivais kitchen, the wall clock ticked past 19:15.

Sofia stood beside the stove, a pot of vegetable soup simmering over a low flame. She kept her phone on the counter next to the cutting board. Rayan’s academy bus should have arrived at the local station forty minutes ago.

She dialled his number. It rang five times before going straight to voicemail.

"Rayan, it’s Mum," she said, her voice tight with anxiety she was trying to hide. "If you are staying late at the academy or the bus has been delayed, you need to call me. You only just returned to school after your suspension. You cannot disappear without telling me where you are. Call me."

She hung up, wiped her hands on her apron and immediately dialled Karim’s number.

The phone rang out completely. No voicemail. Only the flat, automated tone of a network unable to reach the recipient. Sofia closed her eyes, leaning her palms against the cool kitchen counter. "Of course," she whispered bitterly into the empty room. "The exact same thing."

Four hundred and fifty. Four hundred and fifty-one.

At the wall, Rayan’s movements were degrading into a horrific, uncoordinated mess. His left leg was shaking so badly that he could barely balance on it while striking with his right. The ball was no longer returning in a straight line; it hit the uneven seams in the concrete and skittered wildly into the dirt. He had to lunge, slide and scrape his knees against the gravel just to continue the count.

Every touch felt like a battle against his own skeleton. His feet were no longer communicating properly with his brain. His mind had become nothing more than a repetitive loop: ’Don’t stop the count. Don’t stop the count.’

In a WhatsApp group chat labelled U16 Academy Core, Tomás sent a message.

Tomás: anyone seen El Mansouri? his gear bag is still by the dressing-room bench but he’s not on the bus

Afonso: Probably went to the gym.

Duarte: He was dead on his feet during the transition game. If he’s lifting weights, he’s an idiot.

Tomás: bro looked crazy today tbh

Afonso: It’s his choice. The list comes out in four weeks.

Seven hundred and eighty. Seven hundred and eighty-one.

Rayan’s training shirt was soaked through with sweat that had turned freezing cold against his skin. His breath came in ragged, wheezing gasps. The back of his right boot was stained with a dark, spreading patch of blood. The ball felt like a block of solid granite every time it struck his instep.

He struck it with his left foot. It hit a raised piece of concrete and flew directly back into his shin, leaving a sharp, stinging welt.

"Damn it!" he screamed into the empty training ground, his voice cracking with raw teenage fury. He grabbed the ball, dropped it and kicked it against the wall with everything he had left. "Go! Stay straight!"

A short distance away, Coach Tavares stood near the edge of the equipment shed, a heavy winter coat pulled up to his chin. He had been standing there for ten minutes, his keys clinking softly inside his pocket.

He didn’t call out. He simply watched the boy. From this distance, through the shifting grey fog, Rayan didn’t look like a footballer. He looked like a wild animal trapped inside a cage, throwing itself against the iron bars again and again until its bones broke. Tavares had seen boys like this before. The ones who realised the dream was slipping away and tried to fight the tide with nothing but raw, unguided desperation.

It never worked. You couldn’t build structural technique out of trauma.

Tavares looked at his watch. 19:45. The security guards were preparing to lock the outer perimeter gates. He stepped out from the shadow of the shed, his boots crunching loudly against the gravel.

"Rayan," Tavares called, his voice cutting through the damp air.

Rayan froze, his foot hovering above the ball. He turned slowly, his face pale, his eyes wide and bloodshot and his chest heaving like a bellows. He looked completely different from the boy who had dragged himself through the afternoon session.

"The facility is closing," Tavares said, his tone flat but not unkind. "You need to pack your things and go to the transit station. The security team is turning off the path lights."

"Coach... please," Rayan gasped, his hands trembling as he held the ball against his hip. "Please. Just ten minutes. I have... I have eighty touches left. I just need to get to one thousand. Please."

Tavares looked down at the boy’s boots. He saw the dark, wet stain behind the right heel. He saw the raw skin where the sock had slipped down.

"Eighty touches will not change the data on 24 February, Rayan," Tavares said.

"I know," Rayan whispered, his voice cracking as he dropped the ball back onto the ground. "But if I don’t finish it... if I stop now... I have nothing else. Please, Coach. Just let me finish the count."

Tavares remained silent for a long moment, the fog swirling around his coat. He didn’t offer permission or an encouraging word. He turned towards the waiting security guard and raised one hand, signalling for him to delay closing the gate. Then he walked back towards the administrative building, granting Rayan ten more minutes without pretending that what the boy was doing was sensible.

Nine hundred and ninety-eight.

Rayan’s legs were no longer entirely under his control. They moved through pure mechanical momentum, his muscles firing on frayed nerves.

Nine hundred and ninety-nine.

He swung his right foot one final time. The ball left his boot, struck the centre of the wall and returned with a slow, dying roll. He trapped it beneath the sole of his boot, and his body instantly gave way.

His knees struck the gravel first, followed by his palms. He collapsed against the cold, rough base of the concrete wall, his forehead resting against the stone. His lungs felt as though they were filled with broken glass. His heels throbbed with a sharp, rhythmic agony synchronised with his heartbeat.

He stared at the ball resting an inch from his fingers.

He had done it. One thousand touches. His body was wrecked, his feet were bleeding, and he had pushed himself beyond every limit he understood.

But as he looked at the old training balls resting in the dirt, the terrifying truth settled into his chest. It hadn’t changed anything. The ball didn’t feel like an extension of his foot. His control hadn’t become natural. He didn’t feel the "magic" Karim always talked about. He was still the same limited, clumsy player he had been at quarter to five that morning. Only colder, weaker and closer to the edge of the list.

"Why?" he choked out, a hot, angry tear escaping his eye and cutting a clean path through the dirt on his cheek. He slammed his fist against the concrete wall. "Why isn’t it enough?"

The world around him seemed to become unnaturally quiet.

The distant hum of the IC17 motorway faded away. The wind moving through the eucalyptus trees behind the training ground fell silent. Even the rhythmic dripping of moisture from the equipment-shed roof seemed to disappear, leaving Rayan alone with the pounding of his heart.

Rayan’s breath hitched. The air inside his lungs felt heavy and static, as though he had been submerged in cold water.

A sharp, electric-blue spark crackled across the dark surface of the concrete wall. Rayan flinched backwards, scrambling on his heels as the light expanded and flattened into a smooth, rectangular sheet of absolute luminescence hovering exactly three inches above the dirt.

The screen cast no light across the gravel. It gave off no warmth against the freezing air.

Inside the borders of the transparent display, dark, minimalist text began stitching itself across the air, accompanied by a faint, almost inaudible chime that vibrated through the marrow of his bones.

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